I was at an Aura-healing, meditation and (psychic) reading today and I don’t wanna write a whole bunch about my experience there, so I’ll just write a bit about each thing. I’m prepared for your critic thoughts.

- I meditaded in a group with about 10 people. At first I didn’t feel anything special since I have never meditaded like that before so I don’t know yet how to switch off my brain from thinking too much…

- I got an aurahealing by a man. I sat on a chair and he moved his hands around my aura and on my stomach, legs and arms to ‘clean’ my aura from bad thoughts etc. (I needed that but didn’t really feel anything)

- I got a reading by the same man and I asked about my depression and that I feel so lost in everything and such and I got to know two really (for me) interesting and important things:
1. He said that during his aurahealing with me he got the feeling that I was ‘damaged’, that maybe I’ve been violated when I was a kid. This is interesting cause recently I have started really wondering if my extreme interest in sex and such has something to do with something happening to me sometime, but then again, if I was raped I would probably remember it….right??
2. He said that there’s no need for me to be looking for my answers here on earth because this is my first life here on earth, but not in the universe. I come from the stars and that’s why I find it hard to live here at times and hard to find a purpose and answers here. I was a totally different ‘lifeform’ up among the stars before this life and when I keep looking for my answers and such, I should look to the stars. This sound logic for me cause I’ve always believed strongly that there is life elsewhere, for as long as I can remember and I’m still strongly interested in life in the universe and I feel some sort of connection

 

- The same group of people and I were doing a second meditation where you said the name of people you wished to send good light to and then we meditaded and sent light, not only to those people we wanted but to ourselves aswell. This time the meditation worked better for me and I experienced a slight sudden headache and that my arms moved by themselves slowly away from my lap where I placed my hands and they didn’t stop moving until the door behind me blocked them from ’soaring’ any further. I didn’t open my eyes during this to watch my arms, I just let them go where they wanted. I don’t know if anybody else in the group noticed or had the same experience, but it was a nice one for me It felt like something happened inside of me anyway :p

It’s too cloudy outside tonight to see the stars… I wish I could…
I told this to Erik and he said I had met a fucking weird hippie-dude (the one who did the reading on me), so yeah I’m prepared for your opinions on how weird I am. But it’s okey. I’ve always felt weird and I’m confident in my belief regarding this

 

Juha will (hopefully) come to me around midnight. He was at a pub when I called him. If he’s not drunk I might share my experiences from this evening with him.

I will also change colors and such on my blog, from the dull dark to something more bright. I want out of the darkness now, really. Eventhough the light scares me…