Came back from my parents place yesterday. The winter shook me coldly by its hand and filled my breath with a cold wind when I stepped out on Stockholms street. And I longed to get away… I do not like winter or cold weather…
I took a beer with a friend at the pub across from my apartment, and I talked about all the shit that is going on in my life… as always…
I’m tired of my own voice.

This morning I was gonna go to the shrink but she was ill so I had to go home again, thinking I didnt even have to get out of bed if they would’ve had my phonenumber to call me! But oh well… now they do.

I got to know on friday that the landlord and the girl I rent the apartment from had inspected the apartment and that there was a chance that I would be able to rent the apartment first hand! I got really happy!
I tried to call the landlord today but she didn’t answer. Then some hours later she returned my call. At first she yelled at me for living second hand, that it was illegal and bla bla, but I managed to calm her down and she took some of my personal information and she said that before she could give the apartment over to me, she had to check me up. I was really happy that she didn’t just fucked me over cause of the whole second hand contract deal, but she was willing to give me first hand contract So now I’m waiting for her to call back someday and give me a definite answer. And I’m hoping so much it’ll be a Yes ;D

I’m starting to chicken out about fixing my tattoo on wednesday… I’m terrified that something will go wrong again I know I will hate myself if something bad happens again, but I’ll also hate myself if I don’t try to finish it! :p

Gonna go to Juha and his friends place tonight to watch some movies The good thing is: It’ll be really nice to see Juha. The bad thing is: I have to go outdoors in the weather from hell :p

Well, all in all I had a pretty nice time in Motala at my parents place. It’s nice to be with them… As long as we don’t talk about my lovelife, my moneyissues, my future, my life in general…yeah you get it :p
Mom gets so emotional when she drinks alcohol… I definately know why I’m fucked up… I’ve got finnish blood… *sigh*

Bye for now