I feel proud of myself I think I have the right to:

Yesterday morning I talked to the social services on the phone and they really made me feel shitty. I got a slight anxiety-attack and just felt worthless and I just wanted to go back to sleep…
In some way though, I managed to get ahold of myself and calm myself down and forced myself to go to the city. I was gonna go to a house-party in the evening and at first I was thinking about not going when I felt shitty, but I pulled myself together and got out to find a present and to motivate myself. Instead of going all the way in to Stockholm C as I first planned, I went to Vällingby C. I started feeling better and I bought some facial products for myself (and got a perfume test for free) and found a present
When I got home I was feeling a bit better and I treated myself with the facial products and had a nice shower and stuff.

I went to the house-party
And I didn’t drink alcohol and got home in a reasonable time and could take a warm shower before going to bed I think I do have the right to feel proud of myself for pulling myself together like that and get motivation and having a good time without alcohol in the end

I love my friends!

So now I made up a ’schedule’ for my mornings…like a routine I will try to follow to take care of myself a bit more again. It’s small things, but it helps a lot. I know I can’t do big steps now, but I feel okey with that.

I also took up the constant battle with the social insurance office yesterday and sent them a letter and my new ‘medical certificate’.

It amazes me, the strength I seem to possess…:S :S

(PS. THANK YOU VERONICA FOR THE PARTY AND THE YUMMY FOOD! DS.)