(Sorry,PG, another english entry. I suck writing in swedish Förlåt! hehe)

Haven’t updated in awhile…feeling my life has been pretty non-exciting…
It’s sunday, soon monday.
On friday I went to Rock-karusellen in Birkagården and watched my friends band The Reform. They rock!! (please click on their bandname to listen to them )
After that, I joined some friends at the Laughing Duck Pub in the center of Stockholm, but it was kinda boring so Steve, Veronica and me joined the band at Klubb Gås (Bar 122) later, where we had much more fun and much more to drink ;D hehe, Veronica said she wanted to get wasted…and…I can’t remember if she did haha ;D
After that, her and me went to the club Patricia to continue drinking until 05 in the morning. I met my dear Henke briefly and had to hug him of course, holding up the line making the guard and 50 other people behind me pissed off ;p Haha poor Veronica;”Linda, shhh!, shut up Linda, behave or we won’t get in!” But we did
I managed to get home by myself without mishaps, yaay!

On saturday I was hungover but decided to go to Tech Noir in the evening. Popping aspirin for the headache and then you’re ready to party again Bad thing was; it was crowded and they stopped allowing more people inside so after 2 hours in the fucking line I gave up. My toes were numb and I was about to pee my pants, so I went to Mc Donalds instead to eat a meal and pee :p Kinda bad night, but at least I had some very pretty synth-people to look at in the line ;D ;D
And I wasn’t looking all that bad myself:

Me in outfit

Oh and I forgot to mention I cut my hair on friday aswell It was a cute little ’smålänning’ who made me horny when he shampooed my hair ;p I’m so fucking desperate….. haha, anyway, he did a great job but was nervous cause he was still being educated in the art of haircutting ;D He did a great job on me though (’småländska’ and ’skånska’ are the hottest dialects in sweden!! word.)

Manga hair on me..

Okey, so yeah, no Tech Noir. That kinda sucked…but I liked being at home aswell. Talked to my new friend Stefan on msn before he had to go to sleep.

Today was another day of surviving though…. The demons in my head started to really beat me down. I felt like I didn’t have tears to spill today but apparently I had cause soon they kept coming…together with my self-hate and suicidal thoughts I managed not to cut myself though, eventhough the urge was very strong…
I’m just tired having this guy playing with me and my feelings. I’m tired of this chronic feeling of emptiness that eats me alive. Everyone around me seems to start feeling better and get new relationships and I’m still here battling with myself…
I’m going to the shrink tomorrow though. Thank god… will try to explain my feelings I had tonight…
I hate being like this. I hate being myself. I don’t even know who I am….

The 9th march I will go to Motala and hang out with my family and meet Erik and his girlfriend I’m hoping for a great time! I will probably stay for two weeks. Need to be away from my place for awhile, I feel… just try to focus on anything else than my shit… I will bring my laptop but will not be online 24/7, I hope :p
I’m excited cause I will be there when my sister gets her first tattoo!! It will apparently be of the Disney charactor Tinkerbell I will try to do my Medusa piercing aswell by then I think.
Speaking of my sister, I have finally bought her and mom their birthday gifts!!

hmmm…what more can I write about? Jessi (Aurora Studios) told me her kitten had fallen into the toilet. Again. That was the laugh of the day ;D ;D haha, poor stupid thing ;D I hope I can babysit her cats sometime soon again.

I bought some good tea (real tea, no teabags!) on thursday Vanilla-Chocolate-Orange tea (you just know it tastes good by the sound of it!) and Forest Fruit tea I also have White Tea (Jasmine) and Red Tea (Roiboos) as teabags.
I can’t believe I’ve turned into a teafreak when just some year ago I hated tea! Positive change towards the better
I tasted a tea called Hawaiian Sunset at a café and it was soooo delicious! It tasted candy!

Oh jeez, just look at this smiley invasion!!! Have I told you I’m a Smiley-freak aswell? I can’t live without those little bastards

I’ve been checking out this site: What Katie Did and I really waaaaaant a pretty corset!! I think it looks sick but pretty when girls have this kinda ‘corset-waist’. Like a timeglass…. Maybe I should try to get one like that ;D haha.
Well, anyhow, corsets are pretty Jossan and I have been talking about going corset-shopping someday…when we get rich… :p it’s expencive with good original ones :s

Alright, that should be enough writing and updating for today! Don’t forget to write some comments when you’ve read this!