Yesterday I was at the grand opening of Pride Park, the one I have been building from scratch for half a week now It was awesome to see it complete with all the artists and people! (PICS ARE ON MY FACEBOOK)

Jag gjorde en bra grej som jag velat göra i flera år nu! Jag gick till Djurens Rätt’s tält och blev Djurfadder Betalar 25 kr/månaden och jag får massa medlemssaker Jag fick även en fin premie – en tygväska med Djurens Rätts loggo på GO ME! Nu kan jag äntligen bocka av det på min Att-Göra-Lista ;D

Försöker få med mej Isabelle att vara volontär med mej på lördag under Pride Paraden. Jag hoppas jag lyckas! ;D

(beer and festival is always right ;D And yes, I have a new Medusa piercing ;D )

”…And as time roll by
still I feel like a child
as I look at the moon
maybe I grew up
a little too soon…”

I’m so disappointed at myself and I’m anxious now. Yesterday when I got home from work I got my first anxietyattack and broke down for the first time in three weeks. Because of this and that I couldn’t get any sleep for some hours, I ditched the Pride work today. I feel shitty cause I didn’t go, so I’m caught in a fucking anxietycircle that I managed to get out of three weeks ago! FUCK!!!!
And the thing is that all the workers on Pride have a party tonight and I really wanna go, but since I called myself in sick this morning, I’m not sure if I can go without people questioning tonight I keep battling in my head over and over if I should ditch the party aswell or not.

I’m so fucking fed up with having the mind of a 13 year old girl when I’m supposed to be a 25 year old woman. No wonder I fuck things up!!

I don’t know what to do….

Vad ska jag ha för kläder på Prides volontärfest som är imorgon? Och kommer jag ens orka vara där speciellt länge eftersom jag börjar jobba kl. 08 i Pride Park och sen ska direkt till festen efter jobbet? Frågorna och funderingarna hopar sej…

kan man ha svart/grön slips till gula jeans? ….ja för fan, det är ju PRIDE!!! ;D

Tomorrow I start working with building the Pride Festival I’m more excited now than I was yesterday :p

I celebrated Henke yesterday. I gave him the book Pride Predjudice and zombies and a statue of a pretty elf that sat on a mushroom I’m gonna meet up with him soon, to take an evening walk in the city

In august I’m gonna talk to a tattoo-artist about finishing my tattoo, for once, hopefully :p

I’m gonna start working at Stockholm Pride Festival in two days and will work fulltime (as a volontaire = getting paid in experience) from friday the 24′th July until sunday, august the 2′nd!
Then the next day, august the 3′rd, I’ll start working in that garden again until the 16′th august.
The 17′th of august I will start studying
And because I will start studying I will not get money from the social services anymore, I will get a studentloan and get paid by CSN, which I feel is 10 times better than living on money from the social services. So it makes me feel much more free and like I have more control over my life again

Nervous, happy, excited! ;D

Sweet!

(ps. I’ve been hanging out with Pelle for two days now, sleeping at his place. Having a wonderful time and wanting it to never end )

Henke turns 30 years old today!! Happy birthday, sweetie I’ll celebrate him when I get back to Stockholm tomorrow.

I’m watching Speedway on tv. I watched it two days ago aswell…yeah I don’t have much to do here :p I wanna do something else, but it’s sunday and it’s pouring rain outside :-/ I might just lay here in the couch all day..

Might update later.
Ciao!

I haven’t been writing a good poem for what feels like forever….. nor have I been taking care of my My Little Pony collection for a long time either!
hmm… well, about the poems: I have had one growing in the back of my mind for some days now, I just haven’t sat down to write the words down!
The ponies: I placed a bet on an auctionsite for a pretty rare one. Stupid thing is that MLP collectors in Sweden tend to raise the prices TOO MUCH, so I don’t think I’ll afford this one, but I hope I will
And whenever I get around to buy me some new furniture, I’m gonna buy a new shelf aswell so that I can have my MLP’s on display again! Feel bad for them being in plastic boxes… hehe

I made an apple/cinnamon pie this evening after visiting my grandparents (and got 1000 kr richer!). I faked it though cause I bought ready-made apple pieces and ready-made dough. I just didn’t feel like baking for hours today :p The pie was delicious anyway! hehe

hmm..been doing laundry all day aswell. Need to go check it.

C ya!

I’m at Erik and Sussies place now. Sussie is working and Erik’s mom and sisters are here now. They’re playing videogames and I’m waiting for my bus to leave to go back to Motala.
Yesterday when I got here we were barbequing and drinking and sang Singstar. Lots of weird pictures will appear on facebook when I come back to Motala :p Had an awesome time though, as usual when I’m with them

Today my family and my sisters boyfriends family went to Söderköping to eat a lot of ice cream and play mini-golf! We had a great time!

Tomorrow I’m gonna meet up with an old classmate to eat lunch and then I’m going to Linköping to spend the evening with Sussie and Erik I know it’s gonna be a great day tomorrow too!

(photos from today are on my facebook :p)