”…And as time roll by
still I feel like a child
as I look at the moon
maybe I grew up
a little too soon…”

I’m so disappointed at myself and I’m anxious now. Yesterday when I got home from work I got my first anxietyattack and broke down for the first time in three weeks. Because of this and that I couldn’t get any sleep for some hours, I ditched the Pride work today. I feel shitty cause I didn’t go, so I’m caught in a fucking anxietycircle that I managed to get out of three weeks ago! FUCK!!!!
And the thing is that all the workers on Pride have a party tonight and I really wanna go, but since I called myself in sick this morning, I’m not sure if I can go without people questioning tonight I keep battling in my head over and over if I should ditch the party aswell or not.

I’m so fucking fed up with having the mind of a 13 year old girl when I’m supposed to be a 25 year old woman. No wonder I fuck things up!!

I don’t know what to do….